New Year, New Thoughts

The New Year is almost upon me and it has me thinking of all of my regrets for 2013. So many things I should have done and said. But the New Year has me thinking of new ways to act and talk. I look at all the other fashion bloggers and see their success. I realize I don't want to be a successful fashion blogger, I want to be a successful blogger with a range of interest. Clothes aren't the only thing that make me happy anymore, art does too. Life is funny, I denied myself creative outlets, because my parents never thought it was "acceptable." Acceptable meaning I wouldn't make a living off of it and now I can't seem to live without it. Art and fashion keep me level header. So here is my list for the NEW YEAR:

1. Make better art
2. Stop being so nervous when I am around people
3. Try new things
4. Design more clothes
5. Make my designs
6. Get into a merchandising program
7. Learn the inner workings of the fashion industry
8. A better skin regime, because I keep breaking out (I have been staying away from fast food)
9. BE A BETTER ME

This list is better than my list last year. It is more possible. I realized my goals were too big for one year. There is nothing wrong with having big goals, sometimes you have to realize all your goals cannot come true in a short time. And that is the most important thing 2013 taught me. Life doesn't happen for people you have to work hard. Yes, some people have it easier than most, but that is okay. It may be a little hard, but in the end you will appreciate it more. I know I am grateful for all the good things that happen to me. I am in Japan right now. A friend reminded me it was one of the places I wanted to go to in high school. It was a goal of mines and look where I am now. I am in an amazing country and I love every bit of it. I hope to comeback here in 5 years. 

Here is to 2014 and finding out more about myself and finding a lover.

ANSSKRMH

New Arrivals #1

My very healthy obsession with online shopping has led me to new segment for my blog. I enjoy looking at the new arrivals at different online retail stores, so I thought I would add pictures from different retail stores or just one. Today I have been loving all of the clothes I have seen at Guess.com. It isn't a site a visit often, but I saw an ad at the side of Yahoo! and clicked it.

Here are a few or many of the items I will possibly purchase:

1.  BOATNECK FIT-AND-FLARE SWEATER

2. HALF-SLEEVE LEOPARD JACQUARD DRESS

3. HEMATITE-TONE THIN COLLAR NECKLACE

4. LEOPARD JACQUARD KNIT SKIRT

5. BLACK AND GOLD-TONE MULTI-CORD CHARM BRACELET

6. CALIMESA COAT

ANSSKRMH

American Eagle Knit Jeggings: Crushed Berry

When I saw the AE knit jeggings I fell madly in love. The crushed berry color is out of my comfort zone and that is why I purchased this color. It is time for me to stop blending in with society and push to be different. Another reason I purchased them was the high rating it had from several other customers. 

The moment I saw them I thought of several clothing items to pair with them. My cropped t-shirt with a roaring lion print and my moto, ankle boots. The items I am talking about are no longer for sale, so I found other items I would place with it. 

1. Express Graphic T-Shirt

2. BDG Mesh Sails Sweater

3. Dr. Martens 1460 

4. Reboot Moto Jacket

All of these pieces shouldn't be placed together, but I think the items go well with those beautifully, comfortable pants. 

ANSSKRMH

My Current Obsessions

Music:

I have watched these two music at least 30 times in 2 days. It is most likely more, but I don't want to seem too crazy into it. Panic! At the Disco has gotten a new fan. I just recently heard about them through a friends Facebook status. My favorite songs at the moment are "This is Gospel" and "Girls/Girls/Boys."

Clothes:

Lately, I have been obsessed with print pants. It is weird, because I don't own any pants. My closet is void of the thing I am obsessing in. THAT IS WEIRRRRDDD! Then again, I am weird. Here are a few pants I would love to have in my closet. When the end of year sale happens at most stores I will buy print pants till my bank account cries. 

1. Wasteland Pants

2. River Island Pants

Apps:

1. Instagram

I have been on Instagram everyday day on the hour. I am becoming an addict. 

ANSSKRMH

P.S. Hopefully I can overcome my Instagram addiction, but not my shopping. I love to shop!

Hello Beautiful!

For the past 2 years I have had serious body issues. My weight has fluctuated between 130-155 lbs. At the moment I am 144 and I am hoping to keep losing fat. I don't desire to be skinny, I desire to be toned and healthy. Two years ago I wanted to be as thin as can be and I even resorted to throwing up after I ate. I stopped immediately, because it wasn't the right thing to do to lose weight. Then I resorted to starving myself, which didn't help. I got constant headaches, felt weak and my face broke out. I ended that in three days. 

Dealing with depression while having body image problems is very hard on the brain. Instead of working on my body I ended up eating TONS of cookies and ice cream. A carton a day keeps the troubles coming. I ate everything that was bad for me, like tacos, burritos, gyros, freshly baked krispy kreme donuts, cookies, chocolate, mac n' cheese, fried chicken, New York styled pizza, garlic knots, quesadillas, chiclen wings, ice cream (vanilla, chocolate, cookie n' cream, New York super fudge chunk and vanilla swiss almond), chicken fettuccine, burgers french fries, and so much more. I became a "fatty" and it was bad. None of my clothes were fitting. Luckily, I have a mother, father and brother, who told me I was a fatty and should lose weight. I didn't appreciate the way they said it, but it was an eye opener. When I was on birth control I gained weight, and then the anti-depressants and the constant eating added on to it. 

Once I moved back home, the eating didn't stop, but it slowed down. I got a job in retail and I started to lose some of the weight slowly, but surely. As of recent, two boys at my job have been giving me some unwanted attention. They constantly call me beautiful. I am not one of those girls to drop my pants for a compliment. I have very low self-esteem and I don't accept compliments, because I would rather feel that way about myself. I want to look in the mirror and feel beautiful. I know I am not gorgeous, but that is how I want to feel when I look at myself. I want to see someone I am proud of and that is what I am working towards, being a better me. 

ANSSKRMH

P.S. I am trying to eat better but I love junk food. I eat way less though. I do love eating fruits, carrots, lettuce, and cucumbers.

P.S. I have a dress I hope to wear once I lose a bit of weight. The one I have is in a orange, red color and has a more textured look.

Polka Dots and Embroidery

As part of my online clothing browsing addiction I decided to check out Forever 21's new arrivals. It has been awhile since I checked out their site to see what they had to offer. I spotted a polka dot sweater and a embroidered skirt. Mixing different patterns is something I love to do, even if it makes me look like a crazy person. In my opinion, crazy people know how to have more fun. Would I wear these two items together? Most likely. I like mixing chunky and flow-y items together. Fashion and comfort can coincide. 

                               

The chunky polka dot sweater is a nice addition to the outfit to keep warm, especially since it is winter in most regions of the USA. I happen to live in a region where it is hot most of the year, so when the cold fronts come in I throw on a chunky sweater and enjoy it while it last. My legs don't get cold like my upper body, so putting on an embroidered skirt like the one above with some tights will be just fine. I might buy the skirt soon, because it look like it would be a great addition to my growing closet. 

ANSSKRMH

Japan

I'M GOING TO JAPAN.

That is all I have to say

ANSSKRMH

Bro and Sis

My oldest brother and I are crazy, when we are together. Today, he came into my room to steal my PlayStation 3. For some weird reason I decided to act like I was in a dubbed martial arts movie. You know when the actors lips are still movie, but the words have stopped coming out or vice versa. That is how I was talking to him. He was laughing so hard. He forgot to steal my PS3 from me. If he comes back back to my room I don't know how I will distract him. 

ANSSKRMH

P.S. He did talk like he was in a dubbed martial arts movie, when I was doing it. It is hilarious. 

Wishlist: DSLR

For a couple of years now, I have been desperately wanting a DSLR camera. I love photographs because of all the beauty in them. In the past years I have looked at almost every brand of DSLR there is out there. And I have still not made up my mind. I don't have the money either, but that is a discussion for another time. The two brands I like the most are Nikon and Canon. I know they are the most popular, but they do have many lens. SO...MANY...LENS! Lately, I have been going more towards the Canon 60D.

CANON 60D

The main reason I like it is the swivel LCD screen. It is so beautiful and I want it. I better start saving money because this camera almost cost $1,000 and I don't have that money. 

ANSSKRMH

P.S. Here's to hoping for money for Christmas. :D

College Fashion: Black Friday and Cyber Monday

I frequently visit College Fashion, because of their coupons and sale post when there is a huge holiday sale . They did not disappoint in providing information on sales this year. Their coupon and sale post for Black Friday was very descriptive and informative, so check it out.

Here are a few of the sales I know I will be participating in:

Garage is having a Black Friday/Thanksgiving special: Get 40% off regular-priced items and up to 70% off sale items. Plus, they’re offering free shipping on all orders. Offer ends 12/2 at 6AM EST.

 Tilly’s is offering an extra 50% off all Red Tag Clearance items, plus women’s Full Tilt cardigans, sweaters, solid sweatshirts, and thermals are buy one, get one 50% off. In addition, women’s boots will be 25% off. These deals are good from 11/27 at 6PM PST through 12/2 at 11:59PM PST.

 UPDATE: I already purchased something from Tilly's. 

Urban Outfitters has the following offer: take $15 off $75, $25 off $100 and $50 off $150, plus get free shipping with no minimum. Starts Monday 12/2.

I will be so poor by the start of December, but I WILL BE SO FASHIONABLE.

ANSSKRMH

Winter: Coats Edition

Living in Miami, Fl means I have no use for coats, but I am madly in love with them. As a once, frequent visitor of New York, Maryland, Virginia and Canada. I have one good coat, but I am hoping I move out of Florida soon to a colder state. If I am lucky enough to move out of this sweat box I would like some of these coats. 

1. Zara Zip-Up Coat

2. Zara Double Breasted Woollen Cloth Coat

3. Ruche Pheobe Double-Breasted Coat

4. Ruche Mount Camel Sash Belt Coat

5. ASOS Skater Coat 

Coats are something you have to invest in, because winter is COLD. I am saving up some money to buy a beautiful new coat and hopefully, one of these coats are still around in January for me to buy. 

ANSSKRMH

Art Mistake

Acrylic paints are my preference when I am painting. There quick drying capability is the main reason I use it. Being the impatient person that I am, THEY ARE PERFECT. I like to use tape to create line art, but my impatience leads to paint leaking through the tape. Instead of getting structured lines I get wobbly looking lines. Another reason the lines aren't straight is my lack of patience to measure each tape placement. That is the way I like it right now. I like the imperfect look, because life is very imperfect. To create this work of imperfection I used two different sizes of tape, acrylic paint (purple, paynes grey and titanium white), sponge, glue and metals rods. 

ANSSKRMH

P.S. Please disregard the McDonalds flyer on the table. 

First Outfit: Comfy Sweaters

Lately, I have noticed comfy, cropped sweaters. The sweaters are chunky and extremely comfortable looking. I thought I would make my first outfit using a cropped sweater as my main piece. This sweater from Nastygal is the perfect choice for me in my opinion. The sweater has diagonal zippers placed near the collarbone. 

I thought it would be perfect to pair with an overall skirt from Urban Outfitters. The overall/suspender is in a red plaid color. It will give the outfit some color and a punk look. 

I live in Miami, Fl so there is no need for tights and when the weather gets cooler the sweater is good enough to keep you warm. I have been into chunky boots lately and I thought I would find some gorgeous boots to compliment the outfit. These boots aren't as chunky as I want them to be, but I feel like they work in this particular outfit.

I do feel like something is missing from the outfit. Maybe some thigh-high tights will make it more complete or faux thigh-high tights. 

ANSSKRMH

My personal style has been all over the place lately, but my love of punk has been increasing. The need for more black, plaid, leather and boots have been a necessity in my wardrobe. 

Listen to Me

I have this thing I want people (my friends) to do, but I have this flaw. The flaw is I don't say what is on my mind. Beating around the bush is what I do. I never say what I mean or mean what I say. I am a bundle of confusing emotions and I don't know how to handle them, but I want to know. I want to wake up in the morning and be able to tell people how they make me feel. There is a desire to look into someone's eyes and be honest with them. But when I look at people and try to find a way to truly talk about my feelings I fall flat. The reason I am writing this is to work it out my issues. I want people to listen, but I don't talk. Blaming people would be the easy way out and I am tired of trying to take the easy way out. Here is to working hard and finding the desire to actually feel again. 

HERE, HERE!

ANSSKRMH

Miu Miu Style, Miu Miu Grace

My manager at work has a friend who works in sales at Miu Miu. She was telling me how her friend got the job at the company and the manner in which the workers had to present themselves. The workers had to wear buns, red lipstick and clothing from the clothing from the company. This got me thinking about the little I know about the Miu Miu brand. So this blog post is dedicated to me increasing my knowledge.

Handbags:

Shoes:

Eyewear:

Jewels:

   

When I look at the Miu Miu brand, all I can think of is sophisticated and classic. It is structured and beautiful, and it is something I wish I could pull off. But with my lack of self-confidence I don't know if I could do it. You are suppose to wear the clothes, but I believe, at this time in my life, the clothes are wearing me. It is something I should be working harder on, but I just can't seem to push myself to do so. Hopefully, I will be able to jump start my life and find the self-confidence I so highly desire and to be more honest with people, when it comes to my needs and wants. 

ANSSKRMH

 P.S. I know the last paragraph doesn't have too much to do with Miu Miu, but I just wanted to add some honesty to it. I find myself being dishonest with everyone and I want to be honest somewhere in life. This is the only place I can talk honestly, because no one in my life seems to listen to what I have to say. Hopefully, someone in the world is listening to me.

P.P.S I actually painted something last night and it isn't amazing, but it is a start. I want to experiment more and find my artistic edge. Maybe I will put it up as my next post. 

Free People Wishlist

I am a huge online shopper, so I am subscribed to many online retail stores. Mostly ones that I cannot afford, but who cares it doesn't hurt to look. Free People is one of the stores I cannot afford, but I do enjoy looking at their clothing, accessory and shoe options. Their brand is old-timey, reinvented modern, BOHO. Even if you buy one piece you can create it to be your own. I love brands that carry clothes with the option to be more than one style. In the email I received today mentioned contest. All you have to do is make a wishlist and enter it into the contest. The grand prize winner will receive up to $1,500 of the content on their wishlist. Four first prize winners will receive a $250 gift card. I don't care to be the grand prize winner, but I would love to get first place. I do enjoy free money and free CLOTHES. Here are a few of the items I placed on my wishlist (click the pictures to get to the page):

1. Bow and Arrow Henley Dress

2. Wyatt Ankle Boot

3. About a Girl Tutu Mini

4. Soft Legging

5. Diamonite Organic Stack 

6. Circle Cut Jacket

These are my favorites on my wishlist. The one thing I would like the most are the boots, because I REALLY LOVE boots. They are my favorite type of shoe. 

ANSSKRMH

Lack of Inspiration

About three months ago, I would paint almost everyday. I was at the top of my game, especially, when it came to learning new techniques. Lately, I haven't been inspired. I am completely lost and I just want to be where I was before. It sucks when you can't be as artistic as you used to be, because you don't believe in you anymore. All I know is I want to believe in me again and become INSPIRED again! In honor of my lack of artistic production I will show a few of my older pieces. Hopefully, as I am going through each of the pictures of my art I find the happiness I used to experience when I created them.

While looking through my history of work I could feel every emotion I felt while creating it. I could feel the anxiety falling from my shoulders, I could feel the first honest smile I made in two years, and I could feel myself not wanting to cry anymore. Art is my escape from the world, where I feel as if I do not fit in. Art is the one thing I know makes me feel on top of the world. I hope I start creating again, so I can feel like I am healing. 

ANSSKRMH

Mary-Ann, Terry Doesn't Live Here

Yesterday, the urge to check the voicemail for the house telephone appeared. While I was going through each message deciding whether to delete the message or not, I heard multiple messages from a lady named, "Mary-Ann."

I am guessing Mary-Ann has been calling the wrong number without realizing it. Message after message I expected Mary-Ann to get angrier, but she kept on sending well wishes to Terry. The first message I listened to Mary-Ann mentioned how her life was just starting to get better. On the third message, she happily said, "Hey girl." I could feel her determination to speak to the elusive Terry. After the fourth message, I started think, "Is Terry avoiding Mary-Ann?" The messages span over a month time period. Why hasn't Terry called Mary-Ann or does Terry think Mary-Ann is avoiding her?

To Mary-Ann, the lady who gets happier and happier with each left message, 

"YOU ARE CALLING THE WRONG NUMBER."

ANSSKRMH

P.S. Pacsun is having a sale, extra 30% off of mens clearance and 70% off of womens clearance. PLUS, they are lowering the price for shipping to $1. 

Spring 2014 Trends

I was perusing through Glamour (where I borrowed the images from) and saw the 10 trends for fall. At this moment in time I am very in love with what I am seeing. I don't feel the need to write a super long intro, because the pictures will do the trend topics justice. Here we go with the 10 trends for Spring 2014.

1. Pretty Pastels

It is a rollover from Fall 2013 and a Spring classic. 

2. Boxy, Cropped Moto Jackets

I love moto jackets more than I love hot chocolate and I LOVE HOT CHOCOLATE!

3.Contrast Collar Button Down

I love shirts that have a sort of color blocking theme to them. 

4. Wide Leg Trouser

I already own two pairs from 6 years ago and they are so comfortable. The best thing about them is they make my butt look AMAZING. 

5. Bomber Jackets

I wonder why they call these jackets bomber jackets. Does it have something to do with the Air Force? My guess was close, it is a flight jacket for pilots. 

6. Tea-length Dress

It isn't a midi and it isn't a maxi, IT IS AN IN-BETWEEN . 

7. Sweater Dressing

SWEATER DRESSING?!?! The names people think (I am so jealous I am not one of those people).

8. Tuxedo Meets Athletic Striped Pants

If tuxedo meets athletic, are these pants going to be comfortable? Athletic apparel is usually very comfortable, this is coming from a person who wears track shorts to lounge in. 

9. The Shift Blouse

Good bye t-shirt and hello shift blouse. The shift blouse reminds me of SOMETHING I WANT. 

10. Collarless Coats

I love collars, but I think I have a pretty neck. These collarless coats will sexify your neck. Let's get sexy people. 

ANSSKRMH