Shredded Mesh

Just a few pieces I am lusting after at the moment.

Leather wrap bracelet, White crop top with mesh sleeves, Dream catcher necklace, Ripped jeans, JC Tripper Bootie, Nine West watch, Kate Spade Stud earrings

ANSSKRMH

Scared to Fail

Today, I found out one of my closest friends contemplated killing their self last night and I could relate. There are people in the world that just know their purpose. They what they are meant to do and I am not one of them. I have no idea where my life is going and it is easy to feel like my existence is nothing. But the moment we start thinking like that our transition into death becomes quite easy. It hurts and it is hard to be happy, but it is possible. If I kept thinking that way I know I wouldn't be here. Our existence does matter to the people in our lives. We impact them with our personalities and how we treat them. It gets difficult to keep the thought in my head and I get terribly sad, but I will not take the "easy" way out. I am going to try and find my place, and prove to myself I deserve to exist. The self is the hardest person to please in my opinion, especially since I became depressed. I just want so much for myself, but I don't know how to make it reality. It all just makes me want to cry and sit in a dark room, however the more I want for myself will never become a reality.

I...

I am an average student and person.

I really don't try hard, so I couldn't honestly say I am smart.

I know really random things like the normal temperature of the human body or the number of bones in the body.

I use words like plethora and coitus.

I am wired differently.

I am brave and  I am scared.

I don't know what it is, but I know I am scared all the time.

I am scared to fail so I do not try. 

I live my life in autopilot and it irritates the hell out of me.

I am tired of it, yet I do not try.

I DO NOT TRY.

I want to be different, but it doesn't show. 

People do not know what I feel.

I am really good at hiding my feelings.

I know so much about myself, yet I do not understand me. 

I feel like a lost cause.

I AM ...

I AM LOOKING TO CHANGE.

I am looking for motivation.

I am searching for focus.

I searching for purpose.

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!

ANSSKRMH

Aritzia

I just found out about this clothing brand known as Aritzia. One of my favorite Youtuber, Oh Hai Claire. She was wearing a beautifully crafted romper from them in her NYFW Vlog Part 1. I am a obvious lover of all things clothes and decided to check if Aritzia had an online shopping site. THEY DO!!!! Here are a few items I fell in love with on their site. I <3 Aritzia!

I think this is the romper she was wearing. IT HAS POCKETS, I LOVE THINGS WITH POCKETS.

Yes! That is all I have to say.

I love anorak jackets and this dark olive color is to die for.

ANSSKRMH

Lost Girl

I just need a moment to vent. 

On one of my favorite shows, Lost Girl, they killed off the black guy. THE ONLY BLACK GUY!

WHHHHYYYYY!?!

THE ONLY BLACK GUY!!!!

WHHHYYYYY?!?!

You most likely have no idea what I am talking about. 

Lost Girl is about a succubus, named Bo, that finds out she is apart of a race known as face. The fae have different powers and looks, and are divided into two sides: the light and the dark. Instead of choosing a side, the succubus chooses "human," whatever that means. She still has to feed on them to survive, if she doesn't she will go on a rampage. The only black guy on the show was her lovers friend, who is a wolf. I should stop calling him the only black guy, his name was Hale. Hale is a siren and throughout the season falls in love with a human. Season 4 Episode 13 is when he dies. I cried like a little baby who just wants to be held. He was my favorite character because he was the funniest and had amazing abs. Maybe he will comeback!?!?! MAYBE?!!? 

ANSSKRMH

P.S. Please let him comeback!!!!

Update: They just killed off the human character, Kenzi. WHYYY!?!? She was my second favorite.
Two in one season, these writers are animals.

Boredom = Art

Melted the crayon with a lighter. Dripped the different colors and used to blow dryer to spread it. 

ANSSKRMH

FUN STUFF!

This is AH-MAY-ZING!!!

I wish she would have won. That is an incredible feat and I wonder if anyone has tried to do it since. 

Jean Overalls

It has been a long time since I wore overalls. If I remember correctly, it was when I was in sixth grade and the side got caught on the window sill. SOMEONE was trying to smack my butt (private school boys are perverts. LOL). This was at the beginning of the day and EVERYONE was in the classroom. My jumper ripped down to my thigh and everyone saw my panties. I don't think they were cute either. My teacher stapled my jumper so I could get through the day. EMBARRASSING!!!

Jumper, Converse, Necklace, Earring, Tank Top, Ring, Bucket Bag

It is summer in Miami and I want to be comfortable. Summer rarely leaves Miami, Fl, so you get over the heat and welcome summer appropriate clothing. I, also, miss my jumper/overall or whatever people are calling it these days. 

Hope you enjoy these pieces!

ANSSKRMH

P.S. The bucket purse is my favorite.